Secret Sunshine

What I loved about two films that we've watched in Signs and Wonders is that they left me humble.

There is a constant tendency of us as Christians to think that we know all the answers of the tragedy, because we know Jesus, who dies on the cross to carry our burden. Making Jesus as the "first kit" of any problems.

I do think that God is our helper, comforter, and able. I do believe in God, who is real in our lives that mends broken things and feeds us everyday. However, the problem is not in God, but in us.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." is like the favorite Bible verse that we refer to when we see people in difficulties or when we find ourselves in the middle of the storm and weariness.

However, we forget the verse after it: "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls".

Yes, "take my yoke upon you."

It is very evident that God has his own way of working things out. In the case of this movie, where it is very easy to be skeptical about God, because of the main character's attitude, but it is clear that Ms. Lee is the closest person to God in the movie.

It is true that all the things that happened to Ms. Lee is the consequence for acting in front of people like she has things that she does not, which provoked jealousy. Ultimately, leading to the kidnapping of her son demanding ransom. Despite all the anger toward God, ironically, at the same time, she seemed to be most intimate with God, know more about Him than anybody else.

God's grace doesn't come easy. Before Peter was able to catch 153 fishes, he had fish all day and night. I think that is the mystery of relationship between God's sovereignty and our will. When we hit the limit, that is when God intervenes.

Sometimes, our prideful knowledge of Jesus limits us to really encounter him. It makes us lazy and oblivious about what it is to live a life of questioning and searching for answers.

Truth must set us free, but I am realizing more and more that the truth that I believe in bounded and restricted me. I guess what I held as a truth was not a truth, but a self righteous belief. Yes, there is a big difference between "truth" and mere "belief".

I thought that this movie was a tug of war between "truth" and "belief".

One thing that makes truth distinct from belief is that it cannot be comprehended, but it is always there just like that sunlight shining Ms. Lee's dark room.

I believe in full "freedom". Not only the freedom of my soul as we long for heaven, but also of my body and mind.

But there is a yoke that I have to carry, tears that I have to shed, the pains that I have to observe. In order to learn how endure  for the truth that I long for and to be freed from my beliefs.

If anything made sense in this blog...