It seems like a lot of posts are about how Leeper's class is leaving people in a state of questioning. Why pursue film? Is everything I ever thought wrong? Am I just a sell out? The films being shown are making everyone question their choices, and their favorite films. Just today, I could feel the tension in the air rise as Leeper discussed how comic book movies are nothing more than just that: comic book movies. People walk away from that class questioning all they thought they understood.
And I just haven't felt that questioning from his class. In fact, I question myself more when I'm talking to other DMA majors around my age then when I'm sitting there listening to Leeper talk. For the last few weeks I've, for some reason, felt ashamed of my desire for the "art house" style of film. For enjoying the films being shown class and thinking they were the hidden gems of our culture. I've felt like maybe I was trying to hard, or maybe I wasn't meant for film if I don't even have the desire to make big Blockbuster features or to rub elbows with the A list of the industry.
But Leeper's class leaves me not depressed or upset or in a state of confusion; rather it leaves me rejuvenated and feeling confident. It makes me feel confident in my passion for the art. It's like yes, I want to do
that. I want to think like
that. After every class I feel better about my choices and my goals for my self in relation to film.
Today's class really made me smile, because everything Leeper said was something I've been struggling with. I'm not strange if I don't want to be the next Spielberg. I'm not strange for wanting to make a film that lives on in 10 people rather than be forgotten quickly out of millions. And if this class has taught me anything, it's that there's a thousand and one things left to learn but for right now I'm doing just fine.
Does anyone else find Leeper's class to be a much needed affirmation?
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