Silent Day of terror and tears

Today we probably could not eat alot. Could not see things in our normal eyes. Probably had a hard time today. I know I did, seeing and hearing something that Leeper said really got to me. For instance, the quote from Tony Cuppala-" I have three things to say. One 30,000 kids die from hunger, two most don't give a shit, three you probably cared for me more for saying shit". Sorry its a quote, even I hate to swear. But hey this is really what Leeper was getting at.

We cant just be perfect for jesus. Sin is in our lives and will always be. War will always be happening in the middle east politically and biblically stated. we cant be perfect. Probably all of us have had high school friends who showed us things we did not want to see. Heard things and learned things we dont want to hear about.

I am really now understanding and really thinking as he stated of how we are in film major or animation and we want to stay nice, but we are artsy. We on campus we probably all thought lets go see how good christian people should act. Saying words from society is easier to say from what God wants us to say. Because we all heard them said on "Jersy Shore", "MTV", or watching those bad "R" films. But sometimes we should just shut up and say nothing.

Another thing I got out of today was when we were talking about something like what would you do and say if you were there to late. Like from that sad song about a girl OD'ing and dyeing in an ally. The father was there to late. What would you do if your family or friend was dyeing or dead and you could have helped but you were late. Then when you go to the procession, wake, funereal, is that the time to proclaim you thoughts about living godly and being good and saying christ is the way.  NO you should just be there to support and be there. I cant relate to this cause I have never been to a wake or a funeral death in the family so I really cant say much. But I understand where Leeper is coming from.

2 Corinthians 4:7-12

New International Version (NIV)

⁷ But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. ⁸ We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. ¹⁰ We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. ¹¹ For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. ¹² So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

This verse helped me alot when I felt depressed and sad mid summer after my last mission trip because i told my pastor some feelings I have been holding in for my deer life. I now read this and think where I am truly going no matter what happens.

I am sorry to say this but we all wont have that perfect family, perfect friends, perfect personality. We are all different.

But please dont worry things are better in my life I think, I hope just please pray for me because i am really unsure cause I am away in college not knowing whats happening back at home to say the least. 

:(((((   :(((((((

Romans 10:9

New International Version (NIV)

⁹ If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.