Rethinking things

Ugh sorry this is late. I actually had this all finished yesterday, but putting Leeper out in front of the panels was harder than it looked. Turned out I had to rasterize the panel layers to make them erasable so that I could take out the parts I needed and- agh, you don't want to hear about that ^_^; its super boring and to be honest, took too much time to find on the internet. Now if only I could find the way to get rid of those obnoxious 'page 6' and so ons that show up in the bottom corner *grumble grumble*

Now to get to the crux of the matter

Basically, the last few times I've left class, I've felt really depressed. Okay, that may be an overstatement, but I've been blue, let's put it that way. I feel like I may not be cut out for this whole story thing after all. Which really hurts, because story is what I want to do. I want to create stories, to create characters. I have a deep passion for stories and characters, but this class has made me rethink everything I know. It makes me think that maybe I like the wrong stories. Yes, most of my favorite films are obscure animated features from Europe and Asia, but I also enjoy movies like Iron Man and the Harry Potter series. It also makes me think that maybe I'm going about everything wrong. Some of my story ideas are more 'Christian' than others...ugh...that's worded wrong. Basically I mean, in some of my stories are more along the lines of a Ted Dekker novel, where God is spoken about and may even be an active character and some characters may be outspoken Christians...this isn't writing out as well as I would hope. I hope I'm making some sort of sliver of sense. Or maybe nobody's reading this and they just look at the comic. ^_^ I mean, that's fine. Sometimes its good for me to just write out what I feel, a kind of therapy. It doesn't matter if anyone reads it.
What I'm trying to say is that I'm struggling with being Leeperized. I understand some of what he's saying and I agree with it too...but at the same time a lot of it I can't always wrap my mind around. It might not help that this week I've had a cold, so I haven't been able to wrap my head around most of my classes.
I mean, I've never been the person who thought they could change the entertainment industry. I have thought, however, that I could be a positive influence. Create works that are more wholesome (and by wholesome I mean...like...more like the term 'wholesome' meal. It fills you, its not just meaningless fluff. I myself don't like nonsensical violence/language/nudity and sexuality in media...but sometimes these things have a purpose so you can't just write them off as untouchable) and that have truth to them. And I also, to be honest, want to make something that someone could watch with a relatively good conscious. Is that wrong? I can't even tell anymore.
I'm probably just overthinking stuff. I do that with life in general, so why not here too?