Crap

Watching those films back-to-back… merciless is what comes to my mind when I think of why Leeper did that. When he said today was going to be "rough"… yea, there may have been some truth to that. After watching the animal’s loved ones taken away from them in a second… that was rough. It was. Then it got to watching a child locked in a fridge, suffocating, while humanity did the same as myself: they watched and when they were done watching they went on with their lives. Imediately it got much more difficult, from watching that opening scene to having a completely emotionless man stir up my emotions in a way I cannot even explain. “Rough” may have been an understatement.

I will not forget that last film. I did not understand it at first, but it was on my mind all day. When classes were over I went to my room, re-watched the film, searched for commentary, and viewed some parts of the writer/director's other films all to find some sense I could make out of it, to gain some knowledge I could share about it,  or to find some words I could say about it. I needed a reason why I felt the way I did, and I also wanted something that was blog-worthy. I found some sense, some knowledge, some words, and I was going to attempt to blog about these things. Had I done this,  I would have only been doing so for the sake of sounding profound. It was a bunch of crap. That was all I had: crap. So I still do not understand it, but at least I will remember it. And I guess the only reason I will remember it is because I felt it. I do not know how to describe the feeling, 

but I felt it...